Just Write

Sometimes I get the impulse to write, even though I don't necessarily have anything to write about. I love writing, but tend to pressure myself into always writing with purpose, write well, and write what makes sense. But sometimes, when you're a writer, you can't always make all three happen. If you're one of those awesome published people, then sure, you probably can, but I am not one of those people. I would one day like to be one of those people, but until that day comes, I will continue to just write.

I've had at least three four different blog titles I've written under in the last five years, each one with a slightly different theme matching the season of life I was in. At the same time, each one has become less and less specific, but with basically the same undertones (20's, growing up, faith, job, friends, travel, life, learnings). After all, I am only one person with only so many different perspectives on life. There was "Gluten FreeDumb", there was "Scribbles",  then there was "Anthropology of a Girl" and now "Love Just Write". For one OCD reason or another I always want what I am writing about to match the blog title. I didn't want to talk about my feelings about being in my 20's under the title of what was supposed to be a food blog. And when I didn't want to talk about crafts or shopping anymore, I switched over to Love Just Write.

At a certain point under each title I always seemed to hit a wall with nothing to say, so I stopped writing. Then to fix that, I would write some version of a "rambling" post just to get me in the motion of writing. It was my way of telling myself, "you don't have to be perfect, it doesn't have to make sense. Just write!" I'm a  perfectionist at the core, which can be really great, or really debilitating. I'm trying to work through the debilitating part...be ok with imperfection because the imperfect things are the things I love most in life. Art. People. Flowers. Nature. Questions. Writing. I love the personality, wisdom, and learnings that comes with imperfection...be it in a person, situation, or writing. It's freeing. It makes me feel normal. It gives me a sense of peace and a little bit of hope. It tells me, you're ok.

As you can see, my journey to Love Just Write has taken some time. Do I have followers? No. Do I even have a fancy layout for my blog? No. I don't really have any of that. But I do have a safe place to write whatever I want. To talk about all the things and people I love. To talk about what it means to love justly and a place to just write.

Even as I started this post, I had only jumbled thoughts and feelings to account for. I could have let that scare me away from writing, but I didn't. I love writing. I love what it does for my soul and I hope one day it can bring that same pleasure and peace to someone else's. In the meantime, I will continue to just write.