About My 20's

I could spend days writing about life in my 20's and still not be able to explain these years adequately nor understand them to begin with. As a 20-something each day begins with a pregnant pause of anticipation-What's to come? What does this day hold? Who will cross my path? Moments pass by at a snail's pace, and then before you know it you're living an entirely different life than you were just 6 months ago. It's impossible to keep up with the days, each one abandoning me before I have the chance to get even the slightest grip on it. I know I am being shaped and formed into the person I will one day say I am, but there is no way now for me to tell you who that will be. You actually probably have a better idea of who I am than I even do.

20's are about so many things. They are about forging relationships and breaking the bad ones off. They are about being broken and rebuilt. They are about late nights with best friends driving down PCH with music blasting out the windows and about gaining and losing weight as if your life depends on it. 20's are about spur of the moment adventures with no one to answer to and road trips to destinations off the beaten path. In your 20's you scrimp by to make ends meet, and sometimes choose to forget you're broke and spend the money anyways. In your 20's there are a tears and college debt and more cartons of ice cream that I'd like to admit. From 20-29 a lot happens and a lot changes. Despite being one decade, both ends couldn't look more different.

Tonight, being a 20-something meant dancing in my living room to music blaring from my iPhone simply because that sounded like a heck of a lot more fun than a run, walk, or popping in some boot camp-kick-your-ass DVD. As you may have read, I went through a really difficult season not too long ago, although it's starting to feel further and further away from my present. I struggled and fought and cried in the shower until I could get myself together just enough to play normal.

But now I'm on the other side and I'm ready to have fun. I'm choosing to believe the rest of my 20's will be marked by joy. In these next few years I will laugh with friends and more importantly, laugh at myself. I will travel. I will sing as I drive at the top of my lungs knowing full well the car next to me bears witness to my insanity. I will dance in my living room on a Thursday night, music as loud as my little phone can manage, leaving a sink full of dishes and 4-day old pile of laundry to fend for themselves. I will do all these things in the name of joy, for the sake of my sanity and enjoying the life I've been given.